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Author: Kenny's Goodness
Title: Dueling Views
Type of Work: poem
Source: CMv1 #77

Copyright 2002 Kenny's Goodness


(Everything I really think in this poem is in italics and everything I say is normal. I hate how torn one can get over relationships. --KG)

Picking up my heart, bloodied and broken off the floor, I realized what happened…

I never thought it would come to this…

My emotions in a crumbled heap while you go on with life, nonchalant…

Why did you have to hurt me?

Manipulating me was a pretty fucking fun game for you, huh?

I want to die…

You fucking prick. I never should have gone back with you after the first time.

All I needed was your love…

Why? Why am I such a moron? So nave? So inexperienced to think that you were really interested in me again?

Your smiling face…

That fucking ersatz adoration you had for me; you had it all out of need! Out of desperation! FUCKER!

Your gentle, sweet touch…

You USED me. You pushed me down to bring you up. Fuck you. I hate you with all my being.

I wish you could see how much I still love you…

I wish you understood the power in which I damn you to hell for all of eternity.

Take me back…

I hope you’re happy, you cocky-self righteous fuckface. You ruined me twice. You should be really fucking proud.

But I know you won’t…

I hope no one ever has to go through what I went through with you. No one deserves that, just like you didn’t deserve me…

Ever…

EVER.